Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Truth

Are we condemned to feel inadequate when we hear the good fortune of a gay friend who is deeply involved in a loving a nurturing relationship? Is it inevitable that we feel envious that a guy, someone we don't even know, has a boyfriend and that they are eternally committed to each other. Is the capacity of other gay men to fall in love and stay in love a yardstick with which some of us measure our own capacity to love? If so, are we that insecure?

Does the heart know immediately when it is in love? Is there an overwhelming tide of emotion that washes over ever fiber of a person's being? Is there a gentle tug at his heart or a soft whisper of affirmation? Or does the heart concede to what is convenient and settle for what is stable?

Envy, the green eyed monster that makes you wish you ordered what the guy at the other table has.

I've been here before.

No history, no identity.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

No history, No identity?

Trust me Miguel.
It has history...
but not sure either it has identity!
I used to be there once
or maybe twice...
or more...
so i knew how its feel very well.

Pensive Fool said...

So we're back to the issue of "trust" :P

Pensive Fool said...

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Anonymous said...

miguel, why the sudden insecurity? in just the last installment of your blog, there was the 24 roses episode.

Anonymous said...

its not the issue of 'trust'.its the issue of 'saying what i feel its right' u smartie.:).

diego jr...
no need to wonder.he always like this.but he still fun-u bet.i put my money on him :)